Obviously I havent updated my blog because of my busy schedule. Anyway, I’ll give you an idea of what happened during those days. I was really stressed out because a lot was required for us to do. I mean, I couldn’t even find time to respire. We made our project in C.L.E. which is supposed to be for next week. But hey I’ve learned my lessons. I have to accomplish everything as soon as it’s assigned to me. I cant seem to work appropriately when I’m in cramming mode. I used to be good at cramming but it seems to be not working for me anymore. It only creates stress and it makes it hard for me to catch up with sleep. Anyway, the project was a report on a certain sacrament. Ours happened to be confirmation. We did something different because we recorded it on video. It’s a spoof version of wazzup wazzup. It was fun because I was the field reporter that time. I got to interview a lot of passers by and their answers were really funny. It’s such a pity that they don’t know anything about confirmation. This is a catholic country, isn’t it? Then why do these people don’t even have a clue what confirmation is? For crying out loud we should know more about our religion. We’re like doing something that we don’t even know what it’s for. Tsk tsk… Moving on, sometimes I feel like I tried to let go of someone but whenever I see that person the feeling comes back. It’s wrong to say that I don’t love Alexis because I’ve realized that I have loved her. There is a big difference when we say “hindi kita mahal” and “minahal kita”. Sometimes the feeling comes back and it’s weird. I thought all along that I’ve learned to be numb. The fact still remains that somewhere in my heart still resides her presence. If I don’t feel anything for her then why do I get jealous if she talks about another guy? Why are my eyes still attached to her angelic face? Whenever our eyes meet I still feel my pulse flutter. My heart still pounds the moment I pass her by. Sometimes I feel stupid for choosing Abi over her. That’s life, some things aren’t just meant to be. I feel that she doesn’t give importance to me anymore unlike before. Is there still a chance? Sige na, torpe na ako. I can’t help it! I find it hard to talk to her. Siguro kasalanan ko nga kasi mukha akong manhid. Anyway, I’m not on the top ten of the class anymore. I did my best and this is where it could take me. I’m not really disappointed anymore. I don’t know why. I feel like life isn’t always about winning. Sometimes it’s just about how you played the game. I had fun and it’s better than having to push my self into something that would make me on top of the class. I don’t want to be pressured. My dad wasn’t mad at me he was more of disappointed. LOL! I’ve nothing to be disappointed about. You would only be disappointed if you expect something. I never expected anything and I’m pretty much happy with what I have. I’m still optimistic that God made this happen because he has a better plan for me. I’m also happy for the person who replaced me in the top ten. Good job RJ! You rock! I’m now number 13 in the class ranking. Oh geez the lucky number!
