Before I slept last night I got the chance to talk to Alexis. We cleared up a lot of things. While I was conversing with her I felt my feelings rekindled! How could someone stop falling in love with someone like her? Last night is going to be one of the best nights of my life. I’ve come to realize that it’s already the love month and it’s kinda boring to celebrate it alone. I’ve never celebrated valentines with a special someone. Anyway, I asked her to go out with me and Raph in Eastwood on Saturday. From the looks of it, I think she likes the idea. Well, here I go again falling deeply in love! I love this feeling. You feel so cheesy and the world revolves around really fast while you don’t even notice it. Am I in love? I don’t really know. All I know is I’m still feeling something for her. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t tell anybody that you don’t love them anymore unless you’re 100% sure. In the end, you’re the one who’s going to suffer. Love makes you feel inspired and you simply want to wake up in the morning because of it. I think I love her but I don’t know how and I even don’t know why. It all comes down to I’m feeling something for her and I’m kinda hoping that she would give me a second chance. I mean, I feel like I’ve pissed her off because of all the things I’ve done. Here I am still waiting and Im ready to change all that crappy things in me. I can’t wait to see her. My heart is pounding while I’m typing all of this. It’s weird because I’ve never felt this for a very long time. I’m glad that it came back . I feel so alive! I feel so human, human enough to make mistakes and human enough to admit it. I believe that the sweetest love is the one that made us fall really hard. Anyway, Chinese New year is near and I’ve seen the lucky charms that the “feng shui experts” are all selling. All I can say is that all of these things are major crap. We make our own destiny and if we want good luck we should work hard for it. Anyway, my song for the moment is the national anthem which is “Wag na Wag mong Sasabihin”. The lyrics is made for me and I really feel it. I’m goin to be posting it here. Read along and you’ll understand my situation.
May gusto ka bang sabihinBa’t ‘di mapakaliNi hindi makatinginSana’y ‘wag mo na itong palipasinAt subukang lutasinSana’y sinabi mo na
REFRAINIba’ng nararapat sa akinNa tunay kong mamahalin
CHORUSOh, huwag na huwag mong sasabihinNa hindi mo nadama itongPag-ibig kong handangIbigay kahit pa kalayaan mo
Ano man ang iyong akalaNa ako’y isang bituinNa walang sasambahin‘Di ko man ito ipakitaAbot-langit ang daingSana’y sinabi mo na
[Repeat REFRAIN][Repeat CHORUS]
At sa gabi, sinong duduyan sa ‘yoAt sa umaga, ang hangin ang hahaplos sa ‘yo
Oh oh
[Repeat CHORUS
