It seems that blogging has become a once a week thing for me. I no longer write like hell like I used to. I just feel like more responsibilities are added on my list as time goes by. In order for me to accomplish my responsibilities I have to sacrifice some things including blogging.
Blogging is a therapy for me and it is hard to just dump it. I’ve been writing online for the past 2 years and it is really habit forming. I feel like I can no longer do all of the things I want to do. I’m missing on Smallville and Nip tuck episodes which is really considered as one of the deadliest sins for me. I’ve been very busy with debate and my speech class from 1pm-9pm. Anyway, have you ever doubted God in your life? I have, and I must tell you that its one of the most stupid things that I ever did. I doubted him recently and I wasn’t happy that I did so. It was one of the darkest days of my life. It was just so weird knowing that I don’t have a guide to follow. My life was in complete chaos. There were times that I feel like something is lacking to the point that I just want to cry. I’ve realized that the Lord is my shepherd and without a shepherd I am lost. My life would be meaningless without him. My faith came back during the youth camp when I felt like we were personally attacked by the evil one. Strange things started to happen to the point that I was so freaked out that I had to cry in private. I had no choice but to go back to God and surrender and trust him. Guys its hard to put into words and unless you’ve experienced it first hand you’ll never know what I’m talking about. Suddenly, when I went back to Christ I felt like everything is back to normal and was put back in order. Psalm 21 is indeed correct.
“The Lord is my shepherd there is nothing else that I lack”
