It’s some kind of a weird day for me. I feel like I’m not in the mood for anything. I’ve even tried to play an old game which happens to be “the Sims” but it only helped me for a while. Now, I’m back to doing absolutely nothing. It seems hard for me to even try to lift a leg and I don’t really know why. I feel like I woke up at the wrong side of the bed. I’ve been complaining furiously from the moment I opened my eyes today. I have this feeling that I’m in a battle ground. Everyday is a battle and I should win every time I step into the arena. Apparently, I came to the conclusion that I’m only human and I can’t win everything. I’m a chauvinist and at the same time a narcissistic individual. I strive for perfection even if I know that it’s unattainable. But somehow I wanted to simulate perfection. I mean, I can’t be perfect but I want to stay as close as possible to perfection. I came to realize how much technology crippled our expression of love and affection. Just look at how much we’ve evolved. We barely talk to one another. A part of which is we consider a conversation in YM a normal thing. Well, let me tell you that its not customary. I mean, we actually tend to forget to communicate in person. We are now more comfortable using technology in expressing and communicating. Ask yourself this question. Have you talked to me longer in person or online? Another thing is this blog fiasco. People are now so into blogging to the point that we tend to forget that its our moral responsibility to ask the person as to what is really happening in his/her life. We now rely on blogs to update us about our friends. I have nothing against blogging in fact I love it because I can express my thoughts and ideas in a unique manner. What I don’t like about blogging is that people use it more often than really having a conversation with their friends. For example, a person would rather read his/her friend’s blog than asking their friend about what happened during that day. Another thing that has been bugging me is that I’ve noticed a great change in my circle of friends. Some of the people I’m really close to now seem to be drifting away from me. I feel like my circle of friends has grown bigger but what exactly is the price? The expense of my growing circle of friends is actually someone I used to be close to. It’s hard to convey what I want to say because it’s so hard to put into words. What am I saying anyway? I’m just expressing the random thoughts baffling inside the grey matter of my head.
