I’m melancholic and at the same time euphoric. It’s a feeling that is so hard to put into words. It’s something I’m not used to experience. The thing is I don’t know whether I should indeed rejoice or feel depressed. First, I like to point out that I’m feeling better as each day passes because a simple blog entry enlightened the people around me. I’m thankful because they took time to assess my feelings. I like to ask for their forgiveness as well because I was in such a bad mood when I wrote that particular entry. I wasn’t really targeting anyone but I was raged by the idea and not the people who did it. I was thankful because I can see that everyone was trying to appease me. “Sorry” is one of the most powerful words that somebody could utter. Such a short word enlightens a crude heart. I could really see the effort that everyone was trying to be sorry about bashing debate. I salute everyone who understood my situation. Hats off to you guys! I was just overwhelmed by the fact that a straightforward entry could mend my relationship with other people. I mean I was awed by the idea that a number of people felt and understood what I was trying to convey. Even some people that I didn’t even considered to be anti debate approached me and said they were sorry. It touched my life in so many ways than one. It pushes me further to become a better person and to represent Claret with pride and honor. There is only one thing that I find really annoying. It’s my ability to manage time. I can’t seem to get on my feet. I had to constantly fall each time I take a step. I feel that I’m struggling to keep my grip on things like grades, family and YFC. The neat thing though is I can see the fruits of my labor. I try hard to do my best, debate with honor, win with dignity and make the game beautiful. I’m slowly but surely achieving my list of goals in debate. I do have the passion to debate but it’s quite hard to actually balance everything. I have to get organized as soon as possible. Choral elocution is just around the corner and so is Inquirer Interscholastic Debate Championship (one of the biggest national debate competitions). Not to mention CMLI and YFC metrocon and the CTK Youth camp. Here goes the juggling clown! I just hope that I could do everything successfully. I’m keeping my fingers cross.
